Yo, finally I am only left with one assignment. But this assignment is enough to kill me to the max. Individual assignment, 40%, have to do in BM somemore! I only have another 10 days to complete the assignment and I have barely started. Well, I have to minus the weekend so actually I am left with only one week or so. Die? I don't care la! Let me have my cekap weekend first!

This week has been pretty hectic huh. Many things are going on. Meetings. Bible Quiz. Makan time. Lepak time(but meaningful, k?). Classes. Assignments. Oh yeah, after so many months of 'hard work' finally I had my 8 hours of beauty sleep. Haha!

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Man looks at the outward but God looks at the heart. Well, I believe that God will raise up leaders after His own heart ~ Leaders who will guide the people with knowledge and understanding.

The Joy of the Lord is your strength!

Those who plant in tears
will harvest with shouts of joy.

They weep as they go to plant their seed,
but they sing as they return with the harvest.

Psalm 126:5-6 (NLT)

Many things on my mind. Hmm, but I thank God for those 'many things'. Never mind if you don't understand what I am saying. Haha. =)

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
Emily Dickinson

I shall not live in vain.

Help me to see things the way YOU see it,
and that I will not lean on my own understanding.

Really.

amazed

"... let all My words sink deep into your own heart first. Listen to them carefully for yourself.."
Eze 3:10(NLT)

A lot of things on mind, as usual la. The stuff about my room and the problem of not having enough sleep -- never mind, I will just have to adapt to it. But as I reflect on different things, I really thank God that He's there with me and for me. These few days -- well, I have been kinda busy but it was meaningful in a way. Spending time alone in my lala world with God. Meaningful conversations with different people. The satisfaction of finishing a few parts of the many assignments(but there's still a lot more to go!). Learning to see things in a different way. Sharing some thoughts with different people.

Although sometimes my heart will suddenly sink.. but then.. it kinda reminds me of how much I needed God, that I really got to trust in Him and not to lean on my own understanding.

Indeed, how marvelous, how wonderful is my Saviour's love for me!

what is this lar~

I have not been having enough sleep. I guess things got even worse when I have a daily morning call at 6++am, waking me up with..

1. A noisy bathroom door, noisy cabinet door, noisy lock, noises of stacking the books, noises of hanging the clothes hangers.
2. Movements of my bed as that person hangs those hangers.
3. Shaky double decker bed as things are put at the lower bunk.
   
4. Super strong softener smell, esp during weekends.
5. Killer perfume smell during weekdays.

Add on to it, the mosquitoes love me a lot. They will pay me visits every morning at about 4-5 something without fail. *help me..*

And add on to lacking of sleep... I am constantly 'terrorized' by all the bizarre things that happened in my room.

1. Wet toilet roll.
   
2. Dirty clothes found in the little blue bag which I use to put toilet roll.
   
3. Detergent and pieces of bar soap here and there on the bathroom door, wall and floor.
   
4. The thick, big, fat nursing book fell from the shelf and nearly hit my lappie.
   
5. Invading my upper bunk territory.
6. Sweet wrappers on the floor and table.
7. Volume of my Dynamo and facial cleanser decreases without me knowing. In short, that person used my stuff without asking me!

*And the second mushroom grew on the bathroom door... "_" *

Please lar~ I wonder where is this young girl's common sense? Well, it's testing my patience. Alright, that person can still do a little bit more to make me reach my boiling point. I am yet to explode and give that person a piece of my mind. But you better don't think that I am a poor little sick cat!

我 吾 發 火 吾 好 當 我 系 病 貓 !!

ps: dunno how to revert to simplified chinese character. bleh

50-50

Wordilicious Investigators. 9am-6pm. The Book of Jeremiah. God's Eternal Purpose. The Heart of the Prophet Jeremiah. The Prevailing Situation. The Inevitable Judgment of God. The New Covenant-the Restoration and Renewal.

I don't think it's coincidence that the same things appeared twice in 2 different messages at 2 different occasions. What really matters. The reverential fear of God. Obedience. King Solomon. Thank God for unanswered prayers. I was also reminded of the things I learned from Nicodemus' and the Samaritan woman's encounter with Jesus during the Encounter with Jesus Bible Study some weeks ago. At the end of the WI, this thing stuck on my mind ~ to love the people and build them up.

I always use the word 'broken-hearted' on myself. I don't know how to describe what I felt and am feeling when I heard the word being used to describe how God felt towards His people who repeatedly disobeyed Him.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I mean A LOT. The stuff about churches and Christians nowadays pushes me to think even more. It's like a constant debate happening within myself. Of course, there are some other things which are on my mind. They kinda keep my mind moving and working. Hehe.

A question for myself ~ Am I willing to be like Jeremiah, a Lulu for God?

Hmm, something good happened and I thank God for it. I am feeling 50% happy and 50% guilty. I pray that things will be ok back there because I won't be around during that time. 'Tonnes' of tears were shed for her(and for the both of us) since some time ago. It's complicated, believe me. Hope that I can tell her how much I love her. Oh well...

Today is your 13th birthday,
my dear little bro!

'Happy Birthday' couldn't come out from my mouth when I talked with my bro on the phone this morning. I just saje-saje ejek him. *Jiahui, what is this lar~~!*

Well, my mum always tells me how my bro misses me. *Awww, how sweet of him..* She said there were a few incidents where he cried after I left Ipoh... Haih, this boy ar! =)

I can only go home during the raya break... Haih....

I kind of know the answer to this question.

'Why have you gone where I cannot follow?'

Oh well, I will just stamp a 'whatever lar~~' on top of it. I don't care whether this time my 'whatever lar~~' and 'never mind lar~~' work or not. I tell you... like it or not, this will be the end of it!

neh

Your Score: Matt Parkman
You scored 50 Idealism, 33 Nonconformity, 29 Nerdiness

I don't want to be a chump.

Congratulations, you're Matt Parkman! You're a great person: caring, hard-working, and honest. You might not have the best of luck, but you do your best in all areas of life. Your kind and responsible nature is rare, and you should be proud of it.

Your best quality: Heart

Your worst quality: You may take more abuse than you deserve

I found this in Jon's blog. =)

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Thing to do... prepare for presentation ~ Violence Against Women on coming Tuesday. Argh..

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Sweeping something. Don't ask me what it is. You won't know. And I know I will survive and get over it. Muahahahaha...

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My room smells like dobi to the max and now I got to look like a Ninja. Talking about ninja... I like the Ninja Turtle Leonardo. Click on his name to know more about him. Hehe.. there's some similarities of character between me and my fav Ninja Turtle.

something of this and that

God is faithful and He preserves His people

We met the HEP officer today. My heart kind of like 'stopped' when he said that he is not against activities which are to strengthen our beliefs and that he allows us to have weekly meetings until further notice. I couldn't believe my ears when he said that. And in my heart, I was like "It's You, Lord!! It's Your work in our midst and even in Mr. A! Thank you, Lord. Thank you!!". Indeed, God works in mysterious ways which we can never fathom. =)

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Curently listening to a compilation CD of songs by HK singer, Sammi Cheng(she is my fav since my primary school days wei). Aha, those were the days when kids will go crazy over celebrities, spend money on cassettes and CDs, collect pictures and newspaper cuttings on anything about that person, decorate bedroom and files with that person's posters... yada yada... I don't know about you but that's what I did la. Oh, but I didn't spend much on CDs coz those were presents from my friends. Hehe.

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Oh well, after such a long time... finally I got the chance to walk and run in the rain. Weee... no choice la. I know it's gila but.. It's super fun lar~~ All sort of funny stuff happened over the past few weeks(or 'months', I can't remember la) and I have concluded that such bizarre things only happen during my uni days.

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Aww... last week at this time we were at Colmar Tropicale... I miss Bukit Tinggi ler. I wanna go there again!!!

crazee...

The let's-go-crazee session after at Paandhi after com meeting was fun. 7 of us there and we were talking about all kinds of ports and ships. Long ships, short ships, ports and beaches, binocular and etc. Some more later on we added some miniature ships and ports. Boats and jetty. Hmm, not bad right? Haih, it's a long story la. Now my mind is not really functioning after one day of cekap activities ~~ watching seniors being 'thrown' and attending meeting and having more meat and reading more stuff on violence against women and playing some ganas game.

Well.. I wonder.. Where are you lar, my ship?

Muahahahaha....

you won't know

i wonder huh...
why can't i muster every ounce of courage i have
and just do it?

Oh well, I am kinda running out of time. It's really testing my patience. *As if la you know what I am talking about*

I know I will stay alive.
And I'll survive!

I will survive!!!!

I'm a ISTJ - The 'Examiner'

Oh well, I am supposed to study for the Gender test. Gonna sit for the test later. But here I am blogging again.. reduce tension la *isssh*. Hehe, I found this personality test thingy from roomie's blog. And I did the test during Komputer Pendidikan class this morning. *cannot kah?*

You can click and know more. Just wanna highlight some things from the result of the test which kinda amused me, esp the part about ISTJ Career Matches. There is a list of career but I just take out a few la. Well, according to the test, ISTJs are often happy with the following jobs which tend to match well with the Examiner/Protector personality.

* Dentist -- wow... really ar? I put this in my UPU form, by the way. =)
* Detective -- Detective Conan! No no no... Detective Jiahui! Yo man!
* Doctor -- ooohh... like that lar... But then hor....
* Math Teacher -- what about Bio teacher wei?
* Military Leader -- Can you imagine that? Jiahui, a military leader. Muahahaha..
* Police -- Be a police ar.. gila meh..? I am not tall enough lar, wear specs lagi~~ well, this height problem doesn't qualify me to masuk the military thingy also lar~~
* Scientist -- modify the plant genetics and make them into giant man-eating plants. Weee...!

By the way, Darth Vader is also an ISTJ. Eeyore is also in the same gang. Bruce Wayne, the Batman is also an ISTJ!! Wah, G.W. Bush and George Washington jugak sama gang wei!!

slow to learn

You are my strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
Reaches to me

You are my hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace
In the power of Your Name
You lift me up
You lift me up

Unfailing love
Stronger than mountains
Deeper than oceans
Reaches to me

Your love O Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness
Reaches to the skies

You are my Strength, Reuben Morgan

I know that I need to struggle with God over some things. Well, what to do... The Heart is Slow to Learn...

the best weekend!

I just came back from Bukit Tinggi this afternoon. I really enjoyed my 2 days 1 night in Bukit Tinggi. I(we) don't have any pictures of this trip to put in the blog coz none of us brought digicam *awww* And the complaints we made are still ringing on my mind...

"Haiyo, we should have brought camera la, so nice la here..."

"I can take the picture of flowers..."

"If I have a camera now...."

"How nice if someone can take picture of us sitting here..."

"My dear, stop complaining...."

I named the trip as Merdeka Bukit Tinggi Trip, saje la since we went there on the 31st Aug. Well, a super brief summary of the things we did in Bukit Tinggi... erm, quite in chronological order.

Cool journey. Super tasty McD Doublecheese Burger. The folds of hills. The hills are alive. Botanical Garden and Japanese Garden. A lot of walking(I mean A LOT!). Beautiful bryophytes and pteridopytes and gymnosperms and angiosperms. More complaints about not having a digicam. Imaginations about genetically modified plants suddenly transformed into giant man-eating plants. We saw a few Siamang@Gibbon. Koi that are not afraid of strangers. Cute rabbits(and donkeys and deers). Chased after rabbits and carried them. Talked to donkeys. French Village@Colmar Tropicale. More walking. A place for honeymoon(erm, not really though). Nice coffee and pizza Tarte Flambee. Wanted to be Jack and grow the bean. Blew bubbles. Graceful black and white swans. Picked up pine cones. Dinner. Watched people swimming and blew bubbles at the balcony. Watched Chicken Little. Blew bubbles, again. Watched the Andrew Llyod Webber thingy till 2am. Super comfortable bed. Went to the river this morning and had a good time there. Beautiful dragonflies and butterflies. Again, how nice if we can take pictures of us, and the insects, of coz. No ping pong. Blew bubbles at the balcony again. Jumped into the swimming pool without proper attire. Simply swam. Jumped into the water a few times. Being pushed into the water from the back. Bak Kut Teh for lunch(had super banyak pork this week! Good!!). Back in PJ at 3. Talked. Said bye bye..

Well, I had great fun with these 2 crazy fella. =)

But I still miss home ler. *_*