more randomz stuff

This morning.....
I am reminded of this....

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me,
for I am gentle and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:28-30

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Last night, I had a good time talking and laughing. Hmm.. I really needed it, before I go nutz teruk-teruk. =) Some usual chit-chatting.. but it really challenged me to trust God in all things. ALL.

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Once, I was addicted to online chess.
Now, I am addicted to facebook Sudoku. Help me ar!

ooouchh...

nice sunset. spent some time thinking about something. and realized that i have always been wanting this, wanting that; wanting more of this, and wanting more of that; complaining about this, complaining about that; crying over this, crying over that; sighing about this, sighing about that... teruknya aku ni...

The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want.

oh well.. HE is knocking some sense into my head...
*ooouchh...*

another 3 more papers to go. praying hard that things will be ok. one-of-a-kind mood doesn't help in studying. oh boy...

something and someone

"Men in our families are like the sun, they have a light of their own(they own resources, are mobile, have the freedom to take decisions, etc). Women are like satellites, without any light of their own. They shine only if and when the sun's light touches them. This is why women have to constantly compete with each other for a bigger share of sunlight, because without this light there is no life." -A rural woman-

What the woman says struck me every time I read this portion of some Gender articles.

I guess this happens not just to women in rural areas, but also to those in urban areas. It doesn't matter whether she is a housewife, a doctor, a factory worker, a sales girl, a teacher, an office lady, an engineer, a politician and etc... It showed me how much women are dependent upon men as their provider for all basic needs.. physical, mental, emotional, for security, for companionship and etc, that their lives are only secured and complete when there is this one man. I can't help but agree that such thought has been internalized in a woman since she was young, and is further reinforced by all kinds of social relations in her life. No matter how successful and established a woman is(whether in the end, she is single or married), I believe that at different points of her life, she too struggles with such needs. A needs and dependency which is so interwoven with all kinds of things in a woman's life.....

Well, maybe that's the reason why
we are looking and waiting for that
someone...

Will we be able to break free from such dependency on men?

Concubine Lane@Panglima Lane

Hidden within it... are the stories of different people

I am back from PoT's. The time spent there was truly a wonderful experience and I really learned a lot from the speakers, my friends, my Small Group and Buzz Group members and etc. Hmm oh yeah, one of the best things in PoT's was the super cekap scenery. Erm, we took quite a number of pictures (i am a vain PoT, so do some of them. what to do?).

Well, some parts of the conference weren't easy for me. Things which I need to look into. Struggles. Past hurts and regrets. Broken heart. Shattered dreams...

The sessions reminded me a lot of things. It has helped me to once again look at the reason why 'teaching' was in the list some time ago. Hmm, there are other things which God spoke to me through people during the conference and I really thank God for it. Erm, I shall call those things 'a pleasant surprise which is kinda scary at the same time'. =)

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A heart that truly wants to bring healing and wholeness to many broken lives...

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PoT's 2007
From Jonah to Nehemiah

Oh ya, I am going back to Ipoh tomorrow morning! Yay!!

God's WAY is to REVEAL AS WE WALK.

We were looking at the pine cones on one evening. You picked up one and said...

"... unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies,
it remains only a single seed.
But if it dies,
it produces many seeds ..."

continue from the previous post...

Posers giler~


I like these pictures lar~

Well, I guess all this happened due to the influence of The American Next Top Model. And hence we have...

Hmm, basically this was what we did for the weekend. I really enjoyed the weekend bumming around with my darlingz ~ Panjang and Penjang@Pandek in this town called Banting.

Pendek, Penjang@Pandek, Panjang
Love you two lotz, man!

a weekend in Banting =)

I had a great weekend in Banting. Indeed it was a time out for me although we were busy doing a lot of things. Well, we didn't take many pictures. Aiks, some funny mistakes la, but never mind. We were in Banting on Friday evening and came back to PJ this morning. We went for Orang Asli Sunday school in Pulau Banting. Morib Beach. Kelanang Beach. Sunday service. Makan bak kut teh with Marky. Hmm, I really enjoyed the food. AJ's mum is a good cook! We had curry crab, curry chicken, macaroni and etc. Well, it was fun and exciting to lepak at Kelanang beach because we didn't really know the way to the beach. But the scenery is so beautiful.. mangrove swamp, the sun, the sea.. the 3 girls.. blah blah blah..

Well, of course I need to upload some pictures here. I know we are super vain and super posers. And that's how we wasted Marky's battery and later only we found out that we can't use AA battery for his digicam. Argh!

Alright, it's already 4.15pm!! I got to run to the Gender class now. I am late again! Argh..

To be continued..
...Great pictures coming up

Yo, finally I am only left with one assignment. But this assignment is enough to kill me to the max. Individual assignment, 40%, have to do in BM somemore! I only have another 10 days to complete the assignment and I have barely started. Well, I have to minus the weekend so actually I am left with only one week or so. Die? I don't care la! Let me have my cekap weekend first!

This week has been pretty hectic huh. Many things are going on. Meetings. Bible Quiz. Makan time. Lepak time(but meaningful, k?). Classes. Assignments. Oh yeah, after so many months of 'hard work' finally I had my 8 hours of beauty sleep. Haha!

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Man looks at the outward but God looks at the heart. Well, I believe that God will raise up leaders after His own heart ~ Leaders who will guide the people with knowledge and understanding.

The Joy of the Lord is your strength!

Those who plant in tears
will harvest with shouts of joy.

They weep as they go to plant their seed,
but they sing as they return with the harvest.

Psalm 126:5-6 (NLT)

Many things on my mind. Hmm, but I thank God for those 'many things'. Never mind if you don't understand what I am saying. Haha. =)

amazed

"... let all My words sink deep into your own heart first. Listen to them carefully for yourself.."
Eze 3:10(NLT)

A lot of things on mind, as usual la. The stuff about my room and the problem of not having enough sleep -- never mind, I will just have to adapt to it. But as I reflect on different things, I really thank God that He's there with me and for me. These few days -- well, I have been kinda busy but it was meaningful in a way. Spending time alone in my lala world with God. Meaningful conversations with different people. The satisfaction of finishing a few parts of the many assignments(but there's still a lot more to go!). Learning to see things in a different way. Sharing some thoughts with different people.

Although sometimes my heart will suddenly sink.. but then.. it kinda reminds me of how much I needed God, that I really got to trust in Him and not to lean on my own understanding.

Indeed, how marvelous, how wonderful is my Saviour's love for me!

50-50

Wordilicious Investigators. 9am-6pm. The Book of Jeremiah. God's Eternal Purpose. The Heart of the Prophet Jeremiah. The Prevailing Situation. The Inevitable Judgment of God. The New Covenant-the Restoration and Renewal.

I don't think it's coincidence that the same things appeared twice in 2 different messages at 2 different occasions. What really matters. The reverential fear of God. Obedience. King Solomon. Thank God for unanswered prayers. I was also reminded of the things I learned from Nicodemus' and the Samaritan woman's encounter with Jesus during the Encounter with Jesus Bible Study some weeks ago. At the end of the WI, this thing stuck on my mind ~ to love the people and build them up.

I always use the word 'broken-hearted' on myself. I don't know how to describe what I felt and am feeling when I heard the word being used to describe how God felt towards His people who repeatedly disobeyed Him.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I mean A LOT. The stuff about churches and Christians nowadays pushes me to think even more. It's like a constant debate happening within myself. Of course, there are some other things which are on my mind. They kinda keep my mind moving and working. Hehe.

A question for myself ~ Am I willing to be like Jeremiah, a Lulu for God?

Hmm, something good happened and I thank God for it. I am feeling 50% happy and 50% guilty. I pray that things will be ok back there because I won't be around during that time. 'Tonnes' of tears were shed for her(and for the both of us) since some time ago. It's complicated, believe me. Hope that I can tell her how much I love her. Oh well...

something of this and that

God is faithful and He preserves His people

We met the HEP officer today. My heart kind of like 'stopped' when he said that he is not against activities which are to strengthen our beliefs and that he allows us to have weekly meetings until further notice. I couldn't believe my ears when he said that. And in my heart, I was like "It's You, Lord!! It's Your work in our midst and even in Mr. A! Thank you, Lord. Thank you!!". Indeed, God works in mysterious ways which we can never fathom. =)

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Curently listening to a compilation CD of songs by HK singer, Sammi Cheng(she is my fav since my primary school days wei). Aha, those were the days when kids will go crazy over celebrities, spend money on cassettes and CDs, collect pictures and newspaper cuttings on anything about that person, decorate bedroom and files with that person's posters... yada yada... I don't know about you but that's what I did la. Oh, but I didn't spend much on CDs coz those were presents from my friends. Hehe.

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Oh well, after such a long time... finally I got the chance to walk and run in the rain. Weee... no choice la. I know it's gila but.. It's super fun lar~~ All sort of funny stuff happened over the past few weeks(or 'months', I can't remember la) and I have concluded that such bizarre things only happen during my uni days.

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Aww... last week at this time we were at Colmar Tropicale... I miss Bukit Tinggi ler. I wanna go there again!!!

you won't know

i wonder huh...
why can't i muster every ounce of courage i have
and just do it?

Oh well, I am kinda running out of time. It's really testing my patience. *As if la you know what I am talking about*

I know I will stay alive.
And I'll survive!

I will survive!!!!

slow to learn

You are my strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
Reaches to me

You are my hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
Reaches to me

In the fullness of Your grace
In the power of Your Name
You lift me up
You lift me up

Unfailing love
Stronger than mountains
Deeper than oceans
Reaches to me

Your love O Lord
Reaches to the heavens
Your faithfulness
Reaches to the skies

You are my Strength, Reuben Morgan

I know that I need to struggle with God over some things. Well, what to do... The Heart is Slow to Learn...

the best weekend!

I just came back from Bukit Tinggi this afternoon. I really enjoyed my 2 days 1 night in Bukit Tinggi. I(we) don't have any pictures of this trip to put in the blog coz none of us brought digicam *awww* And the complaints we made are still ringing on my mind...

"Haiyo, we should have brought camera la, so nice la here..."

"I can take the picture of flowers..."

"If I have a camera now...."

"How nice if someone can take picture of us sitting here..."

"My dear, stop complaining...."

I named the trip as Merdeka Bukit Tinggi Trip, saje la since we went there on the 31st Aug. Well, a super brief summary of the things we did in Bukit Tinggi... erm, quite in chronological order.

Cool journey. Super tasty McD Doublecheese Burger. The folds of hills. The hills are alive. Botanical Garden and Japanese Garden. A lot of walking(I mean A LOT!). Beautiful bryophytes and pteridopytes and gymnosperms and angiosperms. More complaints about not having a digicam. Imaginations about genetically modified plants suddenly transformed into giant man-eating plants. We saw a few Siamang@Gibbon. Koi that are not afraid of strangers. Cute rabbits(and donkeys and deers). Chased after rabbits and carried them. Talked to donkeys. French Village@Colmar Tropicale. More walking. A place for honeymoon(erm, not really though). Nice coffee and pizza Tarte Flambee. Wanted to be Jack and grow the bean. Blew bubbles. Graceful black and white swans. Picked up pine cones. Dinner. Watched people swimming and blew bubbles at the balcony. Watched Chicken Little. Blew bubbles, again. Watched the Andrew Llyod Webber thingy till 2am. Super comfortable bed. Went to the river this morning and had a good time there. Beautiful dragonflies and butterflies. Again, how nice if we can take pictures of us, and the insects, of coz. No ping pong. Blew bubbles at the balcony again. Jumped into the swimming pool without proper attire. Simply swam. Jumped into the water a few times. Being pushed into the water from the back. Bak Kut Teh for lunch(had super banyak pork this week! Good!!). Back in PJ at 3. Talked. Said bye bye..

Well, I had great fun with these 2 crazy fella. =)

But I still miss home ler. *_*

LR 07'

Adele, Adelene, Jiahui
@
Cheffy's Angels

*For the following story.... I am just typing what Adele is telling me....
I am innocent, really!! weeee*

Gorgeous Angels taking a break after a long day at work in Port Dickson on 14th July while Cheffy is in Japan with some Japanese girls.

We discovered that Adelene can pronounce some cantonese phrase quite accurately. ~~Wu guai wu guai tiew~~. You can ask her to say it to you the next time you see her. But do be prepared for her well-known expression.

"Erm..."

"You arrrrr..."
"Don'tttt wanttt...."

Adelene is so going to kill me(Adele).

We also discovered that we make great models. Just check out the photo. Gorgeous sunset with gorgeous us. Even without make up and all wet. Haha...

Anyway, Jiahui was running around like some school kid. So, I had to keep an eye on her while supervising Adelene's cantonese and trying to enjoy the view. *wink wink*. Alright, I got to walk back to UT now. I am going to miss Jiahui la. And of course, the Banting Ah Moi.

by,
Adele.

traumatised

I haven't come out from that traumatic experience. And I just found out about this 'hidden' part of me not too long ago.

With the latest news I just received from home... and as I looked back at this and that... then only I realised how affected I actually am by the whole incident that took place last year.

I'm feeling the pain right now... for all that happened and is happening.

They need You, Lord.

so do I.