again, some randomz stuffff

When is the last time we chatted so much and for so long? I can't remember. I guess it was N months ago. N months. Haha. There is too much to say. Too much. But I chose to push that away. "Never mind", I told myself. For my yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away... at some place far away.

butterflies are free to fly,
why do they fly away?

you flew away,
leaving some traces behind.

and i left myself wandering through this life with dreams that are fleeting away.

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My BerryBlueBeaniePlant is showing some signs of revival.
Oh my gosh... I am excited!!

over....

i was thinking about my 3 years before and after stpm. it has been 3 years plus since then. indescribable. no one really knows how i felt at that time. neither did i try to explain. well, i dunno what caused me to flip the photo album this morning. and some things which happened this evening. my heart suddenly sank. well. the years before stpm. i kinda missed those days. well taken care of. pampered. loved. haha, *kind of lar~*. anyway, it's over now. so no point thinking about it. =p it's time to get back to my notes and study.

randomz stuff

I am feeling sleepy. weee... Plant Structures and Functions on Monday. die. Prinsip Teknologi dan Pengajaran. die die. Komputer untuk Pendidikan. die die die. Pengenalan kepada Gender. die die die die. haih. sigh. cham. sei. blah. darn. alamak. help! I am going nutz, everyday got to spend a considerate amount of time reading all the articles, memorizing whole chunk of computer terms, visualizing the morphogenesis of leaf, formation of pollen grains and embryo sac and endosperm, thinking about the teaching methods and objectives and other stuff. help!

I am feeling very full, had thosai for supper just before midnight. Cam-whored during the last 10 minutes in cell with the cell group members. my favourite hobby and I can't wait to see those pictures. Marwan came with braided hair and he looked so different.. =)

I am feeling sleepy. what's wrong with me? blah. haha. gone crazy. weee... hehe, the bean in my room is growing, re-planted it with soil today. *beaming*

Grow, Berry Blue! Grow! (Berry Blue is the name we gave to the bean I bought in Bukit Tinggi two months ago). Oh, how I miss Bukit Tinggi, man! Haha, the Burger King and the McD made me thought of BT when I was on the way to Genting for PoT's. Wawawa....

Alright.. my bed is summoning me... nitezzz

yippie

I am feeling sleepy. Drank coffee. Drinking 100 plus now(instead of coca-cola). Sigh. Got so bored of studying. Oh my gosh. Exam is on Wednesday. Etika dan Perguruan. Darn.

I have been reading articles upon articles. chunks and chunks of words. blah blah blah..

Last night's FES 45th Anniversary Thanksgiving and Dinner... haha... I met my mum's cousin. What a surprise!! I was kinda excited about it coz' usually I only get to meet up with him and his sisters during CNY or any big occasions among my maternal relatives. Oh well, they are the ones who brought me to Sunday school long long long time ago. =) Yo... those were the days, man!

Hmm.. what else? Neh... nothing much lar. That's all, I think. Oh ya, lately I am addicted to modifying my pictures to black and white. Haha. That's one of the things I do to waste my time, besides facebooking and daydreaming. Alright, I better start studying. Issshh...

random

26th October, 1pm. I am still studying the Gender stuff (oh well, since I started the day Gender has been on my mind, in front of me, beside me....). Drinking the cekap vanila coke belanja-ed by my roomie. =) *and i'm flying.. weeeee....*

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Listening to jiwang Sammi Cheng's song. Haha.. =p

無援地傷心一場 沒法知一些感情真相

餘情未了 卻不敢夢和想
無援地傷心一場 沒法可走出癡情方向
情懷如雨 永遠沒晴朗
(情懷如雨 怕再度回看)

面對愛你不懂去收放
如能為你我 願賠上今天的創傷
令我再次失望 還是情深一往
愁時共你笑亦和你是我一生中的理想

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Yesterday evening during dinner time... my roomie and I spotted a leng chai who looks like LeeHom and Hero from TVXQ. Well-built, fair, nice features.. blah blah blah. I think he is a Korean. Hmm, one thing good about staying in MC -- chances of seeing some good looking international students are quite high.

Stalk them? Haha... that's what my roomie suggested. Neh... it must be too much of cutting and pasting and doing assignment la you! Hahhaah... What about me? It must be too much of sex dan gender and peranan sosial dan kawalan and realiti wanita dan simbol-simbol yang seksis and perspektif gender... blah blah blah... Sweat!

study lar~

Now it's already 10.30pm. I have been studying the Gender stuff for the whole night(and plus the 2 hours before dinner at 6pm). Sex vs Gender. Biologically determined vs socially constructed. Women's studies vs Men's studies. First wave feminism. Second wave feminism. Third wave feminism. This and that. Identity politics doesn't really make sense to me. Still struggling to understand the notes coz' the BM used in the notes is so darn one kind. Berputar-belit with long BM sentences. Great patience and supernatural understanding are needed to figure out what those BM sentences are talking about....

Read one round? Make sense? *scratch head* No. Ok, read another round. Make sense now? Not really. Oh well, read another round then! *got a bit bengang* Make more sense now? Sigh, a bit lar~ Oh God, help me....!

I came across some parts of the notes and I find it quite one-of-a-kind...
"Politik adalah mengenai pengambilan subjek-subjek melalui proses-proses pembentukan identiti-identiti .... identiti yang dibentuk melalui pergerakan-pergerakan sosial baru --- dengan meletakkan dalam agenda identiti-identiti ..." blah blah blah..... My tongue got twisted a bit reading that line.

"Wanita sedar bahawa pengetahuan yang dikonstruk lelaki mengenai wanita iaitu mereka adalah deviant dari segi fisiologi dan saikologi(I thought it's supposed to be psikologi, but never mind) kepada definisi wanita sebagai bukan pekerja biasanya diterima sebagai pengetahuan objektif tetapi pengetahuan yang dihasilkan oleh wanita biasanya dianggap sebagai subjektif". I got to read the first part of the sentence for N times only then I kinda understood what it is about. Darn.

Facebook

Sigh. I am addicted to Facebook. Perhaps I should just lock my laptop in the cabinet and hide the key in somewhere I know and go study gila-gila for exam, then after a while go and find the key to unlock the cabinet and take out the laptop and plug in the cable and log in and go online to throw some food, superpoke some people, bite some chumps, fight against some vampires and werewolves and slayers and zombies, draw some graffiti, update my mood, earn some money for Food Fight and to buy food for my MooLoo, pet my MooLoo and other peoples' Fluff like Mooorni, Bummer Jr., Marshmallow, Jinraph, Joeyz, Elle, Tofy, Piggi, and etc, get some bumper sticker, receive some gifts, send some gifts, nominate people for some Superlatives thingy... and the list goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on.....

Alright, it's enough! I am going offline now to study the darn etika notes. Sigh. What is this...?!

I am hungry..... hmmm... Oops, I haven't fed my MooLoo...

Love this pic a lot! =)

got it from Tim's multiply

random

My bro, advertising for Ricola.

Cam-whoring runs in my family. Oops, or is it because of my influence? =p

last night

Oh well, I had a great time last night. From making pizzas to frying nuggets to responding to the boiling water in Rachael's kitchen yada yada... Hmm, the gathering was a good one. =)

The girls and Ben.

Let's look at what happened in the afternoon before the bunch of people came...

Preparing the pizzas. It was kinda fun to do that. =)

Washing stuff and frying the golden crispy nuggets. And Rachael was busy taking pictures and laughing at me frying the nuggets.

Advertising for Whatever and Anything.

More advertisements. =P

What makes last night a very special night? I did something which I have never done before... only you understand what I am saying here lar~ What a crazy woman I am!

Hmm, I'll be off for PoT's from 12th to 16th.

=)

continue from the previous post...

Posers giler~


I like these pictures lar~

Well, I guess all this happened due to the influence of The American Next Top Model. And hence we have...

Hmm, basically this was what we did for the weekend. I really enjoyed the weekend bumming around with my darlingz ~ Panjang and Penjang@Pandek in this town called Banting.

Pendek, Penjang@Pandek, Panjang
Love you two lotz, man!

a weekend in Banting =)

I had a great weekend in Banting. Indeed it was a time out for me although we were busy doing a lot of things. Well, we didn't take many pictures. Aiks, some funny mistakes la, but never mind. We were in Banting on Friday evening and came back to PJ this morning. We went for Orang Asli Sunday school in Pulau Banting. Morib Beach. Kelanang Beach. Sunday service. Makan bak kut teh with Marky. Hmm, I really enjoyed the food. AJ's mum is a good cook! We had curry crab, curry chicken, macaroni and etc. Well, it was fun and exciting to lepak at Kelanang beach because we didn't really know the way to the beach. But the scenery is so beautiful.. mangrove swamp, the sun, the sea.. the 3 girls.. blah blah blah..

Well, of course I need to upload some pictures here. I know we are super vain and super posers. And that's how we wasted Marky's battery and later only we found out that we can't use AA battery for his digicam. Argh!

Alright, it's already 4.15pm!! I got to run to the Gender class now. I am late again! Argh..

To be continued..
...Great pictures coming up