Dark clouds.. when is the rain?

Gloomy.....

Well...
Hmm.. so susah payah to load the page due to the connection problem in my place. Finally able to get the page but now I dunno what to type..

Once again.. there's a lot of things on my mind.. Guess what, I am feeling almost the same as how I felt during the time before I went for campcam. That kind of stress, that kind of frustration, that kind of 'a-lot-of-things-on-my-mind' feeling, that kind of 'tiredness', that kind of brokenness.. I seriously hated them..

Although I was able to study(not a lot, but still thank God for that).. Once in a while, I would feel kinda disturbed by things that are going on.. I tried not to think about them, but itz just so tough.. I hate it!!

Itz November.. December is coming soon.. then it will be the end of 2006. Time flies.. Looking forward to 2007, wonder what is ahead of me. Thinking too much and too far. No good. All the 'what if-s' are playing tricks with my mind.. Duh, I m living to the name-crazy jia.

Runaway.. how la to runaway.. suddenly the need of finding my fortress of solitude arises again..

'Rain'.. the 'clouds' are getting darker n darker over here. When is it going to 'rain'...? Perhaps I should get ready an umbrella.. Who will walk with me thru my 'rain' and 'sunshine'?

Why la I missed out that SOmeone? My Heavenly Father.. I know HE will walk me thru.. I know..