I miz home...

*_*

50th Merdeka celebration!! We thought we can see some fireworks during last night's Merdeka celebration in campus. Haiyo, forget about it la. Well, I am super looking forward to this weekend's Merdeka outing. Muahahahaha...

****

I kinda saw this coming. I am feeling a bit anxious and scared and blah blah blah as it began to sink in to me. Oh well, but then this thing struck my mind .....

Trust in the LORD with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Prov 3:5-6

The Chronicles of Killing Cockroaches!

I am typing this post in a semi-standing position and my things are all over the place. A night visitor just came. I guess this is a revenge for the annihilation of cockroaches that happened 2 nights ago.

The night visitor dressed in shiny black amour
Lies lifeless in a pool of hot water
I think I have evolved into a super killer
Corrosive are where my footprints linger
My killer stare is greater than a tranquilizer
Cockroach shivers and faints under its glimmer
Now the visitor will return to its Maker
And our lives are almost back to normal

by *WLL(where is the 'A'?)

*Wjh, Lee Roomie, Leong YL. (A=Adelene). Erm, the 4 of us = The WALL!

Talking about the annihilation on Monday midnight, 12.30pm....
Roomie came into the room.. saying, "Outside got 2 cockroaches wei."
I was already in my bed, half asleep...The word 'cockroach' made me jump up from the bed and said, "Oi, let's go and kill them!!"

So, roomie and I killed took mugs and filled them with hot boiling water from the water dispenser. Haha, hot shower for the cockroaches! We killed 10 cockroaches -- 6 adults(1 went into people' room, and thank God not my room!!) and 4 nymphs. Muahahaha....

One of the nymphs jumped on my right foot.. eeeww!! And I squashed it 'gau-gau' after that. By the time we killed all the cockroaches that we saw, the water dispenser had already ran out of hot boiling water. =P

OK, enough of cockroachy story for the night. For more cockroachy story, click here!

O.N.w.t.K.

I found this video clip.. wee..!! Haiyo, I like this song I Still Believe by Hayden Panettiere very much.... Suddenly felt like watching the show again. *bleh*

Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be.
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe, believe in love
**
I know what's real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for a while..
With just one touch love can calm your fears
Turning all your tears into smiles
**
Love can make miracles
change everything
lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is a river when you fall
it's the greatest power of all

Ahem, it's just a post-One-Night-with-the-King-syndrome.

Aha! It's bedtime again!

LR 07'

Adele, Adelene, Jiahui
@
Cheffy's Angels

*For the following story.... I am just typing what Adele is telling me....
I am innocent, really!! weeee*

Gorgeous Angels taking a break after a long day at work in Port Dickson on 14th July while Cheffy is in Japan with some Japanese girls.

We discovered that Adelene can pronounce some cantonese phrase quite accurately. ~~Wu guai wu guai tiew~~. You can ask her to say it to you the next time you see her. But do be prepared for her well-known expression.

"Erm..."

"You arrrrr..."
"Don'tttt wanttt...."

Adelene is so going to kill me(Adele).

We also discovered that we make great models. Just check out the photo. Gorgeous sunset with gorgeous us. Even without make up and all wet. Haha...

Anyway, Jiahui was running around like some school kid. So, I had to keep an eye on her while supervising Adelene's cantonese and trying to enjoy the view. *wink wink*. Alright, I got to walk back to UT now. I am going to miss Jiahui la. And of course, the Banting Ah Moi.

by,
Adele.

Random betul...

Alright, the random pic of the day. Adelene and I came across this pic when we were looking through all the pics we took in THE Camp last year. Look at Samuel's face. And My face. Erm.... I looked kinda terrified in the pic. *Cheeeee.....* Haiyo, it was last year man!!

Hmm, thank God that my group was not called to do 'microteaching' today. If not, we will surely die. Hmm, thank God for KFC -- Had KFC with Adelene for 'brunch' this morning. *Weee...*

Hmm, I watched One Night With The King on Friday night. The show was quite good, but reading it from the Book of Esther is even better. I kinda like Luke Goss. He played the role of King Xerxes. I know he looked a bit weird in the show, with all the makeup but then.. *ahem* hehe.. nvm, I shall not talk about it here. =)

Well, I like Esther's story. It reminded me so much about this thing called 'One Day'. Yupz, God has a purpose. For me. For you. =)

By the way, Adele is in my room now.. *uh huh...*

traumatised

I haven't come out from that traumatic experience. And I just found out about this 'hidden' part of me not too long ago.

With the latest news I just received from home... and as I looked back at this and that... then only I realised how affected I actually am by the whole incident that took place last year.

I'm feeling the pain right now... for all that happened and is happening.

They need You, Lord.

so do I.

something good.

It was a good meeting.

Hmm, I wanna tell you guys(you know who you are la)... Thank you so much for allowing me to express myself and show you my true colours *ahem*. Erm, I am amazed la to see how God worked in us, how we have walked together and helped each other along the way to reach where we are today... Well, the feeling is kinda beyond description. *weee...*

Stripey and Orangey

There is a spiderweb at the bottom right corner of the window which is directly in front of my table. I don't bother to get rid of it, even until now. Something interesting happened just now and I felt like blogging about it although it may not be something significant but somehow I felt one kind about the whole process. A butterfly-liked insect -- black wings with white dots, body with black-yellow stripes, its length is about 1++cm, with 6 appendages and 2 antenna(duh, it's an insects whattt...) is trapped in the spiderweb. The spider - super tiny, body length is about 0.3cm, orange in colour.

By now, you may be wondering why on earth am I telling you this incident. Aha, at this point of time I still don't know why. The butterfly-liked insect, I named it as Stripey and the spider, Orangey. Stripey was struggling to get out from the spiderweb but all its appendages, the wings were stuck to the sticky substances of the web. Well, take a look at our lives... whether we like it or not, some parts of our lives are still stuck to some past hurts and experiences we have had, and we are struggling to get out of it.

I thought of helping Stripey to get out from the web. But then, here comes the tiny Orangey, crawling here and there over Stripey and its capture web. I know Stripey is gonna die there if I don't take any action because Orangey will immobilize Stripey with poison injected into it through the fang-liked chelicerae and secret enzymes to digest it externally. In life, there will be things or people(well, they may be doing it consciously or subconsciously) who will somehow inflict pains upon us, and to eat us up.

I didn't help Stripey to get out from the web. Why? It's because I feel that this is one of the causes of nature. The predator and the prey. Someone will have to be a predator, and someone will have to be a prey. Orangey is very efficient in its task. With some cutting and secreting of silk strands, it moved Stripey to another corner of its capture web.

I checked the spiderweb again just now. Stripey is not moving anymore. It's not struggling anymore.

I was thinking - Am I being sadistic for I was there looking at Stripey struggling to get out from the web, looking at how Orangey celebrating over its prey and yet I take no action about it? Am I being cruel to say that all these have to happen just because this is how the nature functions?

I thank God that I am not god. For God will surely give us a hand and help us out from the struggles we are facing. And the problem with us is that at times we want to get out from those struggles on our own strength, refusing to allow Him to help us and work in us.

What a lesson I learned from Stripey and Orangey!

2 in the morning

I better go and sleep now... if not, my Saturday will just fly by and habis la my weekend... *weee.....*

Encounter rally in church on Friday evening - with Rev. Bernard Blessings... We didn't have the thing which Kokhow told me last time about 'I blass(it sounds like 'blast' but it's actually 'bless') you, I blass you, I blass you...' *weee.....* Hmm, the service was good. I am kinda amazed to see how he interconnects 2 Samuel 9 with Jesus and with our lives. The message was translated into Tamil by a pastor from GT Tamil Division. It was interesting to see 2 men on the stage, it's pretty interactive coz the speaker is like telling a story and the Tamil translator will translate and mimic some of the speaker's action. Funny giler. The other part of the rally -- nvm, I shall not talk about this here.

Hmm, Daniel is back from Japan for holiday. Suit and I met him in MC food court during dinner. Haha, he still looks the same, not much changes(physically la) from the time while he was still in UM almost 2 years ago. A surprising thing ... he is doing science education in Japan. *wahseh... why eh?*

Talking about meeting people... I met an African guy who is attending the same church as me. He is Emmanuel, from Kenya and he is now staying in MC, studying nursing in MAHSA. I got a chance to talk to him and know him more last Saturday as we were waiting for people to pick us up for church. Hmm, he is quite an humble guy and it's interesting to listen to him. I am pretty encouraged by his heart for God and his openness to learn from people and his willingness to share his thoughts. =)

As to sum up the week...
God is faithful

Alright.. tidur le... super late liao... nitezz

..to Him

God places His saints where they will bring the most glory to Him, and we are totally incapable of judging where that may be. taken from My Utmost for His Highest

Indeed, like what I read in Isa 50:4 ... Morning by morning He wakens me and opens my understanding to His will.

I am Your servant come to bring You glory
As is fit for the work of Your hands

in my heart

I am thinking....

How I can make full use of my talent(s) *erm... if there's any. Oh God, please help me to discover them* and at the same time allowing and helping others to do the same. =)

Enlighten me, will (Y)ou?

thinking lar~

Ahem...

I am contemplating about this one thing... I have been thinking about it for quite some time...

Should I? Or should I not?

How eh? I don't want it to remain as a 'say say only lar~' thingy. But then, I don't really have the guts to do it la. *Argh... what is this lar~*

Never mind. Give me some time to think and dream about it... coz I don't wanna be regretful over this decision. =)

Saturday night!

I was reading some old emails I received and some things I wrote somewhere some time ago. It brought me back to those days when I struggled like hell to get over some problems. Some of the problems still exist and they still bug me once in a while. Reading back those emails and writings reminded me that all things are in the hands of God, that He has only my good at heart. And that He has redeemed me and is in control of everything - your past, present, and future. *Although this may sound a bit inhumane to some, as if you are a puppet... yada yada...*

*

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in His hands

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And He hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go
*

Haih, sometimes I just couldn't understand how I can be so darn stubborn. Worse than a cow(don't ask me "why cow?"). It hit me real hard that I love myself more than I love the people around me, that in some areas of life I love myself more than I love God, and that I am resisting His ways and works in those areas. Oh well, I always feel that I am a Jonah.

I got so fed up thinking about those dreams and ambitions I once had, feeling frustrated and angry over it because they are nowhere near me. Darn, can't I see and will I not understand that LIFE is NOT always about what I want, my dreams, my goals...??!! *Come on, Jiahui... Gotta drill this into your head and heart!!!!!*

Shouldn't my goal be 'listening to God's heart and living life His way'? Shouldn't my goal be loving God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength? Shouldn't my goal be loving my neighbour as myself?

Am I willing?
*
*
*
Answer me, WJH!
Answer me!!

T.W.T.D.

This morning, I bummed into some ex-schoolmates' blogs.

Oh well, those were the days... You don't need to think a lot before you decide on anything.

Those were the days... You go to school to talk crap, to walk up and down the school compound in a super slow pace just to kill time.

Those were the days... You just want to be rebellious and do all kinds of funny funny stuff in school, want to act as 'big sister' using 'torchlight' to shine your konco-konco and purposely challenge the prefects, the teachers and some classmates you don't like. *But then, I have no guts to do those not-so-good-things... So, let's forget about it.*

Those were the days... You study 'paktohlogy', besides biology, chemistry, physics, maths, history, chinese(and cantonese in an informal way), BM, English, Moral(duh...), KH, Geography... Successful rate of paktohlogy? Don't bother to ask, yeah?

Those were the days... You are super hopeful for a lot of things. You have a dream(or dreams, whatever). You set your goals, you know what you want in life. You are enthusiastic. You look forward to come out and work. *But now.... whatever lar...*

*feeling kinda nostalgic now, duh*

updates.

I am trying to work out some things. Some important things. *bleh*

***

Suddenly I have a crave for coca-cola. As usual la.

But mum says: NO cold drinks!!!

***

Amoxycillin doesn't really work this time. So does loratadine. I'm trying out cirrus(5mg of cetirizine HCl+ 120mg of pseudoephedrine HCl). Not taking Zyrtec unless I really cannot tahan. Sigh, how la macam ini? *Got to invest a lot on tissue papers, it's long term lagi. Haiyo*

***

Hungry liao.... it's time for dinner before going for church cell at 8pm.

I dislike Durio zibethinus. Super dislike. Hehe, the name just crossed my mind out of nowhere. Must be the smell that stuck on my mind *got such thing called 'stuck on your mind' huh?* and the Plant Structure and Functions test on next Monday.

Derrr...

呕 啊。。。！

今日是 拜 二。废 话，有 边 个 唔 知 喔！

又 要 去 上 课 了。。。 简 直 闷 到 叫 “ 救 命！！”

算 啦。。。 鬼 叫 你 系 学 生 么。。。

Taking a break

Speechless. I am feeling the pain right now. Sigh, how long more do I have to be in that kind of situation? Those farnnee farnnee people happily went and approved this kind of dressing code... blah blah blah... codswallop betul...!

Imagine.. walking from MC, to Edu fac, Science fac, KDK, KPS... etc in that kind of attire and shoes EVERYDAY... Sigh, what to doooo.....?

Well, I had a good weekend at home although some not-so-pleasant-things happened within the family. It's a super long story. I am still praying for miracles. It has almost been a year. I did think of giving up. But then... It's my family, you see. We bear the same surname, you see.

I felt grateful to see my family, my grandma. But at the same time, it kinda hurts. I don't know how to describe the way I feel. From their faces, I can see that as if something is wearing them down. *Oh well, perhaps I also looked the same. aha*.

Alright, got to go for the gender class.

*I want to fix my eyes on You, Lord. Not on situations or people.*
Really.

L or R?

Jumping up and down from a wall.

Left hurts. Right also hurts... Haiyo... How huh? I thought of choosing to stand on the wall. But that doesn't feel any better than choosing sides. Balancing yourself is a tough act. *duh...*

Stop saying whatever, can you??!!

Oh well..

When I let it sink in
It's all over me

Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning and the tears are pouring
And I want to make it worth the fight

Four in The Morning, Gwen Stefani

S. A.

This is my 206th post after about 16 months... *so what?? Nothing, saje-saje la...*

I need to take a special course on some management stuff.
Don't ask me what and why.

Balik Ipoh for the weekend.
I can't wait to breathe the Ipoh air.
I want to see my dad..
mum..
sisters..
cute little brother..
I want to see my grandma..!!

And I want to know what happened...

My thoughts are a bit messy and kelam-kabut... it's almost 2 in the morning...

I want a good weekend.
And I really needed it BADLY!!

S. A. = stay away

Late at night...

I am listening.

Feeling glad versus Feeling one kind. Well, at least I know where I stand in this issue.

*I cannot be forever whatever. I know.*