Crap

Hmm.... the one brouhaha thingy among the SEP students(esp non-malays).... Gotta wear formally from tomorrow onwards... And some more itz EVERYDAY ... What the heck!

No mood to blog so much about this now... *Darn people*

Finally.. it's 11am!!! the Komputer Untuk Pendidikan class is over!!!!!!!!

dreamz

I dreamt of some big fat cockroaches last night. They were in my room... super huge and with many eyes. *Sigh, must be because of roomie's BeelzeBUG and The Simpsons Movie... 'Thousand eyes, Twisted tail... EPA! EPA!'*

*whatever*

I have gone gila since the beginning of the sem. Nvm. Just hope that I won't go too far beyond control. Oh God, help me!

*

Rain rain go away...

come again another day....

trying to pick up the pieces
and put it back together

I want to get better

The Weekend...

I watched The Simpsons Movie with my church friends at GSC Mid Valley. Haha, we left PJ section 14 at 2.35pm, beat the jam, found a cekap parking space, climbed the stairs(Can you believe it? Me, Meifong and Marwan actually CLIMBED all the way from ground floor to the 3rd floor!)... and made it to the cinema just on time, 3.20pm... Jon and SueLing were already waiting there.. *ahem*.

Well, I am not a big fan of Simpsons even during my budak days. Haiyo, the show is OK lar... The jokes are a bit lame and gila-boong. Hmm... I don't know how to explain la, just go and watch it for yourself la.

By the way, I had a fast-food-weekend. On Saturday evening, the same people who climbed the Mid Valley stairs were supposed to attend the young adults service at 5pm, together with another girl, Ameer. Due to some unforeseen circumstances, the 4 of us were 'stranded' in section 14 Pizza Hut. *Teehee...*. And so we had our dinner there la and decided to attend the Sunday second service. So, after the Sunday service, we went back to section 14 again. But this time was lunch at KFC. After that will be the story about watching The Simpsons la.

My last fast food for the weekend was my all time favourite -- McD for dinner in Amcorp Mall!!! Muahahaha... I was there with KC, buddy Aiwei, and Tux. Well, it's a serious meeting on social concern stuff besides the makan-ing. Hmm... It was a good meeting. =)

Alright, my weekend didn't just revolve around fast food and movie and having fun with friends... One big thing for my weekend(besides reading the st**id Taba and Sim thingy) was the online chess game. Cekap!

Well, at least I played something which requires me to use my brain... *der...*

Teach me YOUR ways, O LORD,
that I may live according to YOUR truth!

Grant me purity of heart,
that I may honor YOU.

*
Lead me on...

Finally!

Time: 7++pm. Haha, after playing online chess for N rounds, finally I won the game for the very first time!! Muahahaha... I am the white colour ones la. Can you see the pawn I circled? Yupz, one more step forward it will jadi the Queen... and the King at the corner will have nowhere to go... 'Checkmate, you win!' The King is TRAPPED! Muahahaha..

Time: 1.20am. This is another round which I played after coming back from Murni. It's my 2nd victory! Haha.. Oh, by the way, I had a good time hanging around with the gang at 6-to-10 and Murni. Hehe.. =)

Well, I just love this thing called 'Checkmate, you win!'

I am happy.. yay...!

*edited the post. Now it's already 1.40am, 28/7.

I know...

that you are the reason.
**
Well, the heart of the problem is
the problem of the heart.

YOUR
g.r.a.c.e.
has overwhelmed
my
b.r.o.k.e.n.n.e.s.s.

SWEEPy..

I got all these pictures from WitchONE.

The Girls!

The gila-boong girls!

The first night in SWEEP, We read about the AMC cheerleading team Titans. It has proven to be useful to wanling during the session on Understanding Physically Handicapped. She was asked to read the newspapers with her eyes blindfolded. And so, she told la the stuff we read about Titans.

This is the trampoline which we are still so excited about!

1, 2, 3.. start!

Help.. wei!

It was fun, man!!

Shelter 1

The boy beside me(not Mark, but the one in red), Kai Min - we played chess together. Hehe!

WitchONE and WitchWAY(witchHui)

Alright.. gtg!

Neh...

I had a cekap sharing on all sorts of cockroachy-experiences with wanling during dinner. Funny man! =P

The cockroachy stuff is still on my mind, besides some other things. Nvm. By the way, someone suggested that the phrase 'Feeling one kind' should be banned from my mouth... Blah blah blah...

Oh ya, you can find some gila-boong things we did during the codswallop Ethics lecture here.

Oh boy, oh boy... Another week of classes and tutorials.. and walking.. haiyo..!

Cockcroah-Fighter vs Cockroaches!!

Darn it! Darn it! Stupid cockroaches roamed in my room at 1 something in the morning!! What the heck!! Want to know what happened? Here goes my real life story as 'Jiahui, the cockroach-fighter'! *salute*

This picture is for illustration purposes, it's not drawn according to ratio.

Last night, I went to bed early la, at about 11sth. I thought la I can have a good sleep till the next morning. I was sleeping on my roomie's bed, super nice la coz it's under the fan. Mana tahu, my cell leader sms-ed at 1.20am, telling me about the arrangement to church. OK la, after that I wanted to go to the bathroom. Well, when I was near the bathroom, I saw one black thing on the floor near the cabinets. It registered straight to my blur and half-awake mind that IT IS A DARN-STUPID-FREAKY-HUGE COCKROACH(this is cockroach number 1, by the way)!!! I quickly switched on the light. On my mind: Should I use my slipper and give it one bang and smash it die die? Or should I spray it with Ridsect? Oh well ,after contemplating for less than 5 seconds, I took the Ridsect and sprayed teruk-teruk onto it's upper part(that's what my mum taught me: In order not to waste the Ridsect, you spray on it's upper part so that it will die faster and you don't need to spray somemore).

Then, the stupid cockroach number 1 ran underneath my roomie's bed. I was like, "Shucks man, come out you darn thing!". And I violated my mum's teaching and wasted a bit more Ridsect again. It struggled and I used the broom to dig it out. It was half dead. With the broom in hand, I gave it a hard blow on its head. On my mind, I was thinking "See la, come and mess with me again, stupid thing."

Alright, after sweeping the stupid cockroach number 1 into the drainage hole outside of the room, I went back to my room, feeling SATISFIED coz it's dead and I can now go to bed. I placed the broom back to its original place. Guess what??! There's another black thing moving around in the corner where we put our brooms, shoes.. yada yada..

What the heck!! How come there's another one here?! Again, cockroach-fighter in action! I sprayed on the cockroach number 2. It's so big, man! It went up and down the box of shoes, in and out of my shoes somemore, darn it! I stood there, waited for a few minutes, looking at it roaming in and out my shoes, der! After that I decided to use the broom stick to take out all the shoes from the box. The cockroach was there and it flapped its wings. I was like, "Ya man, don't you ever fly to my face, I tell you!"

Haih, of coz I sprayed on it teruk-teruk again la. The stupid thing struggled in the box and I kicked the stupid box to the rubbish bin outside of my room. Well, to make sure that it dies, I went back to my room, put down the Ridsect, took the mug on the table and went to fetch one whole cup of hot water, and poured the hot water at the dying cockroach. On my mind : Die die die die die.... you darn cockroach! Finally it stopped moving. *Muahahaha....*

Well, MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! And it's already 1.40am. I killed 2 cockroaches in one night. And that's enough! I don't hope to see anymore cockroaches!

Oh by the way, in the end, I climbed up my double decker bed and slept on my own bed. Duh..

...

I am replaying on my mind again and again one part of our conversation ~ One day.

It's comforting to hear that, really...

*Although I didn't sound like that when this took place*.

serious

heal my heart and make it clean
open up my eyes to the things unseen
show me how to love like You
have loved me
break my heart for what breaks Yours
everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
as I walk from earth into eternity

taken from the song Hosanna

The first time I heard this song was during one of the praise and worship sessions in SWEEP. *wow, and that was in June. I felt like as if it has just happened a few days ago. Aww...*

In the process of digesting the things I saw and heard over the past few days. Some things that happened recently really challenged me to think what does it mean to live my life for God. Serious.

Open up my eyes to the things unseen
...
Break my heart for what breaks Yours

One Day...

Everything I am

Lord God

Everything I have

I give to You

Living for God. What does it mean?

One Day.

One day, I will understand all these things... The things that I went thru', am going thru', and will go thru'..

I am waiting for that One Day. But the process of waiting is so dificult, so heart-breaking...

simply lar..

I found one of my long-time-ago-entries about my favourite lines and I thought of adding some new stuff into it....

Well.. the updated version of Jiahui's standard answer includes....

1. whatever la.. *it's BANNED!*
2. Ok lar.... *It's BANNED teruk-teruk!*
   
3. Like that lor.. *It's also BANNED teruk-teruk!!!*
4. itz bad/not so good/good/very good la...
5. see how things go la.../see first la...
6. cekap...
7. yada yada... *I didn't notice until she pointed it out*
8. Sure or not........?
9. Yeah right~~~~
   

Blah blah blah...

What a day la....!

In conjuction with my roomie's post.. I too shall talk about that farrrneee etika lecturer.. Her class is mere codswallop coz she went from ethics to traditions to marriage ceremony of different races to China to Shanghai to throwing rubbish to chinese food to mutton to rice to mee to transexual... yada yada...

Mee Mee Mee Mee Mee..... Nasi Nasi Nasi Nasi Nasi

During the class, the 3 of us were having ICQ chat room on a piece of paper, passing it from SL to AJW to JH, back from JH to AJW to SL...

JH: Help ME ar..........!!!!!!
AJW: Keldai....
SL: *&$*((*%&#@#$%().. Can die lor...

She is so terrible(that's an understatement).. and so to divert my attention.. I started to write some stuff(part of our ICQ chatting session on another piece of paper).. Some truth about myself...

JH: JH is so cute!
SL: This is the only non-codswallop thing in the class.
AJW: *cough! cough! cough!*

Basically, we are so darn 'terrified and petrified' by her voice and laughter.. and we tried to divert our attention by chit-chatting 'online', drawing and colouring,.. at the same time wishing that something gila-boong like mic-gets-stuffed-into-her-big-mouth will happen to her and we could be spared from her high pitch, scary laughter.. blah blah blah...

By the way.. me, Kokhow and Victor went round the Arts fac to find the room BSBB2 for Gender Studies tutorial class. And we were late for 25 minutes. *haiyo*. It's all the way up, behind the new Edu fac building. Alamak... all tutorials are either discussion or presentation. *Help me ar!!!!*

Well, as to celebrate the new sem(and graduating in 2009, *ahem*).. the 3 of us had McD Delivery and we makan-ed at Dataran Sastera although there's a notice saying that no food is allowed at Dataran Sastera. *what kind of codswallop!* Muahahahaa...

Before we left.. we saw this on the table..

UM.. aspirasimu..
Bukan aku..
Bukan dia..
Bukan mereka..
Hanya kamu..

*funny-nya*

Nvm.

Today is Tuesday. Tmrow is Wednesday. The day after tmrow is Thursday. The day after the day after tmrow is Friday......... blah blah blah...

Komputer Untuk Pendidikan is so boring that I went online to do some IQ test.

I'm in my room now, waiting to go for my Gender Studies tutorial class. The problem is still bugging me. I know it's not something new. So let's forget about it. :_(

*

There was something here inside
Something I thought had died
So long ago

The dreams can be told
But it can never be achieved

You don't know what I'm feeling.

It came back.

I had a good weekend in PD. The Leaders' Retreat was good. And I really thank God for speaking to each one of us, teaching us His ways, assuring us that His presence with go with us and before us.

Introduction to Gender Studies. I kept looking at my watch every few minutes. She kept changing the slides. Every time she wanted to change the slides, my heart was full of expectation that she will say, "Ok, I think I will stop here and continue next week..." *yada yada...*

JV was in 6th college, meeting up with the Medic students. Well, it came back... since this afternoon while I was in the Pekan Buku with Adelene. And it continues till now. The heart is bleeding coz of the old wound, the mind is confused coz of the crazy thoughts about this problem which started 2 years ago. I kind of felt that it's too late to do anything but the Nut said 'Nothing is ever too late'.

*I dunno how to describe what I am feeling right now. But I guess people will never understand this. Sigh. It's painful. It's disturbing. It's still kinda disappointing. The passion is still there but I have kind of understood that you may not get(and for my case, 'I will NEVER get') the chance to do what you are really passionate about. And God brought it back to my mind coz He wants me to learn something. And I know that very well. But having to think about it again is a killer, serious... It really pulls my day down...*

A heart that truly wants to bring healing and wholeness to many broken lives...

Lord, give me that heart...

What a Jonah I am!

simply

Me and my gila-boong brother.

My bro and my cousin, Philip. Don't you think that Philip looks a bit like Sam in Transformers? Well, both of them are so cute!! =)

Alright, I gtg!

Gerr.....

The Etika Perguruan class is super terrible. I just felt like stuffing my slipper into her mouth. She talks non-stop.. and she talks all kinds of codswallop. Haha, wondering what is 'codswallop'? Nvm, I am very lazy to explain here. Well, I am mighty glad that I won't be seeing her anymore. Going to her class is a waste of time coz of the things she talks about -- her experiences teaching in schools. Darn her.. she is such a racist, man! And she thought that she is just being funny. WTH?? Anyway, itz all over. *AHa.. just hope that the other lecturer is not as bad as she is.*

Feeling kinda sleepy. *yawning non stop*..

I need You

Strangely out of place
There's a light filling this room
Where none would follow before
I can't deny it burns me up inside
I fan the flames to melt
Away my pride
Do I want shelter from the rain
Or the rain to wash me way?

I need You, I need You, I need You
I need You, I need You, I need You
You're all I'm living for

I might sound like a fool
But I think I felt you moving
Closer to me
Face to the ground
To hide the fatal cut
I fight the weight
I feel You lift me up
You are the shelter from the rain
And the rain to wash me away


I need You, I need You, I need You
I need You, I need You, I need You
(All I'm living for)
I need You, I need You, I need You
You're all I'm living for
All I'm living for
You're all I'm living for

Face to the ground
To hide the fatal cut
I fight the weight
Feel you lift me up
Can't deny it burns me up inside
I fan the flames to melt away
My pride
Only had a second to spare
But all the time in the world
To know You're there
You are the shelter from the rain
And the rain to wash me away

I need You, I need You, I need You
(All I'm living for)
I need You, I need You, I need You
(All I'm living for)
& I need You, I need You, I need You
You're all I'm living for
All I'm living for
All I'm living for
All I'm living for
You're all I'm living for

I Need You, Jars of Clay

*
A lot of things on my mind.
*

*The LORD Himself will guide you.*

Believe me.

i dreamed i was missing
you were so scared
but no one would listen
cause no one else cared

after my dreaming
i woke with this fear
what am i leaving
when i'm done here
so if you're asking me i want you to know

when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some
reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

don't be afraid
i've taken my beating
i've shared what i made
i'm strong on the surface
not all the way through
i've never been perfect
but neither have you
so if you're asking me i want you to know

forget all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
i can't be who you are

Leave Out All the Rest, Linkin Park

I'm strong on the surface but not all the way through. Believe me.

What a good start huh.... no water in MC.. Isssh...

Well, today will be a super duper long day man.. Class start in 25 minutes time and I am still in my room..

Sunday...

What am I doing on this finally-not-so-hot-day which is also my last day of holiday? Oh boy.. I couldn't believe that the holiday is going to end soon.. Final countdown to the days of books and notes and calculator. Oh, and WALKING!!! Help me ar... I am so used to driving around back in Ipoh. Well, one very important thing whenever I am back in Ipoh -- "Mum, no walking to photostating shop and market pls. Drive! And pls don't park the car so far from the place we want to go, k?"

Oh my gosh, this semester - walk from MC to class, then balik MC(as usual), run from one lecture hall to another(darn, on every Tuesday and Thursday I have to run from Edu fac where the class ends by 11am to Science fac DK4 where the class starts at 11am!)... Duh... No choice, man. No choice...

Anyway, back to 'what am I doing'. Well, I am..

1. Listening to Linkin Park Minutes to Midnight.
   
2. Having my cup of tea.
   
3. Thinking how to beautify My Little Corner.
   
4. Complaining to myself how terribly hot the stupid weather has been.
   
5. Waiting for the rain.
   
6. Preparing to go for classes tomorrow. Aren't you excited? (yeah right~~~~!).
7. Still recovering from post-Transformers movie syndrome.
8. Reading a book about this man who is 'suffering'(I wonder if 'suffering' is the right word) from this funny genetic disorder called Chrono-impairment where he will be pulled suddenly into his past or future. Funny eh? As someone who has studied genetics for 2 semesters in uni and biology thru'out her upper secondary school days, I can't help but thinking how would this be possible? Genetic clock resets? Time travel? Alright, it's just a fiction. A story. *knock it into your head, you bum!* Anyway, all thanx to my roomie... =)
9. Trying to 'inject' some form of excitement into my bloodstream. 'Welcome to Beijing' shall become 'Welcome back to UM'. *#_#*
   

I am going nuts. *By the way, I got addicted to Calvin and Hobbes when I was in SWEEP. *Neh...*

Transformers!

I watched Transformers this afternoon with Adelene. Hehe, a time to 'freak out' before everything goes back to normal from next week onwards... =)

The movie.. Oh gosh, oh gosh.. It's super hebat man! So far, this is the best movie I have seen la. Haiyo, it just reminded me so much of my budak days when Transformers is 'the thing' and it's always showed on TV. When I was on my way back to MC, I can't help but imagining the trucks and cars transform into Autobots and Decepticons.. Muahahaha.. Imagine the stupid rapid KL bus(why must I add the word 'stupid'? *scratching my head*) transformed into a robot. Then Metrobus.. Then Waja.. Then Mercedes.. Then BMW.. Then LRT..! Hmm, which side will they belong to? Will they protect or destroy? Hmmm....

It's so cool man! *Well, it sounds a bit crazy, what to do? I just came back from watching the show whattt.. cannot meh?*

"Freedom is the right of all sentient beings"

Optimus Prime

Tagged la

Alright.. I know this is from some time ago, sorry ya wei yin. =)

5 Things Found In My Bag

1. Purse
2. Mr. Bean Bear
   
3. Tissue paper
4. Keys
   
5. Papers and pen
   

5 Things Found In My Purse

1. Cash
2. Passport-size picture of me
   
3. Identity card
4. Driving license
5. ATM card
   

5 Favourite Things In My Room

1. My Little Corner
2. GT Futsal Gold medal
3. My Garfield pillow
4. Photos
5. Everything in My Little Corner *Bleh*
   

5 Things I've Always Wanted To Do

1. Study 'sth' else.
2. Go somewhere else for hols.
3. Sleep away the hols.
4. Watch sunset everyday.
5. To dwell in my own world of cartoon. (Oh boy.. you never know that huh?)
   

5 Things I'm Currently Into

1. Sunsets
2. Hiding
3. Stuff about some illness
4. Blogging (as usual)
5. Making my mind work harder
   

5 Friends To Tag

1. You
2. You la
   
3. You ar
   
4. Yes, you
   
5. It's you la. Der

10 minutes to finish my first tag. Haiyo. My mind is shutting down .. alright.. it's bedtime!

The day they left Ipoh...

My grandma! Jason, I guess you were talking about this pic la, right? You won, huh? Hahaha..

At Medan Gopeng Bus Station

Ok.. more pics of the nuts. Hehe.. I really miz them and the fun we had in that few days in Ipoh. Thanx Su-yen for the pics!

Back!

YO! I am back from Ipoh. Hmm, it's time to post something about SWEEP 2007. Haha, I enjoyed my time there although some of the things were kinda tough for me. *hmmm*. It was a good exposure for me on social work and many other current issues in Malaysia. It really opened up my eyes to many things. I guess it has also helped me to know more about myself.

I did my attachment in United Voice-Self Advocacy Society of Persons with Learning Disabilities during the first week of SWEEP. There are different types of learning disabilities and different individual is affected by it differently. Some cases are the minor minor ones where they are slow learners. The more serious ones, some can't talk, some can't walk. I was assigned to pair withBasri , sitting next to him while he puts the cards into the plastic bags. Looking at him, I can't help but feeling sorry for him. He can only speak a fewsuku kata , he couldn't walk like a normal person could. But he brings that kind of cheerfulness to me when he smiles. Some of them whom I met during my attachment communicate with one another using "uuhh uuhh.. arr arr..". I wonder.. how is their world? How do they translate all that they heard and saw into their understanding? What comes out from it? I guess it's kinda no point asking, oh well.. But one thing which is very special about them -- they care for one another. Although some of them may not be able to express it with words.. well, sometimes actions is more than enough.

My attachment in the second week was in Shelter 1, a home for abused, abandoned kids age between 4-12. I have seen children's home thru' tv series and heard stories about those homes from my mum when I was a kid. Why ar? She 'threatened' to send me there coz of misbehaviour. Duh...! Haha, we discovered the trampoline in their compound during our last day in Shelter. Me, WitchOne and YeLing jumped up n down like kids. Check out WitchOne's blog! I had a fun time with the kids la, esp playing chess with a boy named KaiMin.
Aiyoh.. there are many stories to tell, I'm kinda lazy to type it out. Ask me if you wanna know about my experience in SWEEP. Hehe... =p Here are some pics of that cekap 2 weeks.

Welcome to SWEEP 2007
A sea of Adventure.
Nehemiah. He gives back dignity to his people.

*

My room. Shared together with Joy, Lydia and Helen.

*

Understanding Physically Handicapped. This picture is very funny la. Wanling and I was describing (we still can talk at that time) where were we and how's the surrounding to Su-yen since she was blind. So happened we were facing the same direction. So did the blind!

Frustrating! Being the only one with eyes but was mute and having no hands.. Yes or No? Thump my feet la! Can't speak, can't write with hands. I can't shout for help when I saw wanling being 'kidnapped' by Lianchui to the conference room in lower ground. I can't shout 'Hey, you cheat her money' when I saw it happening right in front of me. Duh.. You will never understand how frustrating it is!

*

Bird Park! Cekap la!

L-R : Jiahui, ZenLee, Adrian@Ah Boy, Wendy, Su-yen

*

Games! A time to freak out man!

Adrian's idea. A warm up before captain ball!

*

The cekap games we always played during free time--
congkak!

L-R: Me, Wanling and Yeling.

Rummy-O. We played before lights off. Gila man!

*
=)

To act justly,
to love mercy,
and to walk humbly with your God.

Micah 6:8