Redeeming relationships....

Well... here I am to meet my quota of the day.. People asked me how come I have so many things to blog about.. will I ever run dry of 'blogspiration'??

Perhaps.. the things I blog about are not something very deep, a bit superficial though.. nonetheless these are part and parcel of my life. Jiaplace is a place for Jia to share and 'release' her thougths, her frustration.. her 'inner voice'..

Wondering what life is all about.. This something we need to ask ourselves constantly. A way to make sure that we won't lose focus in the things that we do.

Life is not about ourselves, definitely. It is something hard to accept. I struggled, and I am still struggling.. but by God's grace, He has helped me to see things in His perspective. But itz not all of the things in my life at one go, for my heavenly Father chose to reveal those things one by one.. knowing the limit which I could bear.

God is the Jehovah Rapha - the Healer. Everyone has his or her own hurts, deep down inside oneself, concealed by layers and layers of cekap concealer. Perhaps, we are not just sinners in nature, but also actors and actresses in nature - trying to act 'OK' eventhough the fact that we are 'KO'. We are like animals trapped in a cage on exhibition for all to see. Many people come by, stop and see... kacau us a bit. We can't to anything but to snarl and growl at those people. Or sometimes we just got so tired that we start to withdraw ourselves.. farther and farther away from them. It seems that we can't trust anyone to come near us anymore.. not even the Healer.

Sometimes we are just so super cekaply stubborn.. stubborn enough to refuse to be healed by the Healer. We refused to come out from the 'battleground' as a wounded healer. We chose to wallow in self-pity, started to blame people for the things we are suffering.. We grieved over those things to the max, until we are so blinded by our tears.

The thing I learned.. God is the ONLy One with the redemptive power to redeem the parts of our lives that were lost or being hurt deeply over the years, to make your life whole once again. God couldn't start the process of redeeming what was lost unless we are willing to let Him to do so. Making the first step to allow God to heal you leads you to the more difficult part of the process. Flashbacks of the things that happened starts to 'haunt' you, bringing back the bitterness you once thought you have overcome and let go. This is a tough process, it causes us so much griefs. BUt remember that God will not give you or reveal to you the things that are beyond your ability to bear. He knows your limit, He knows you very well.. very well..
Itz ok to grieve over those things, but don't overdo it. Turn to God, lay them down at His feet. Allow Him to work in you. Well, having say that.. this process is not a straigth line thingy, once and for all. Itz a cycle, a repeating process. Itz painful. Itz terrible. But God will strengthen you. We can do all things thru' Christ who strengthen us.

I also went thru' this process.. I know there are more to come as I allow Him to work in me..